The cards have been dealt

I have been here for almost two weeks now and it took a little over a week for me to stop looking for moscos 24/7.  It has been great catching up with friends and spending time with my family but, it does not feel the same to me anymore. Coming back to the home that me and Javi thought we would be starting our lives in. For the most part I try not to let it bug me but it makes me sad sometimes.  I am so grateful that my mom and dad are taking care of it for us and that we had a place for them to go when they lost their own home, but.....

Besides that it took me awhile to get used to doing things around here again, the American way. Taking a shower with hot water without having to wait for the boiler to heat up, and how powerful the water came out like a massage( Not so hard to get used to). Doing laundry, washed and dried in less than an hour (nice if you are in a hurry), but doing laundry is one thing I don't mind doing, weird I know, but I love hanging my clothes up on the line.

I have to say I was so excited to go out shopping every day and eat fast food. I have been out shopping a few days my first week and purchased things that were needed for my trip back for us and the family, but then I would put stuff back and feel guilty for wanting to buy things I  really don't need. I have been living without all this "stuff" for the last five months. It kind of took the fun out of it knowing that I would be spending all this money and Javi is back home working everyday and trying to save what little he is making. It was great going in to walmart and target, but it is all the same, everything is so commercialized. Every store looks the same, has the same products and I have to say I have only eaten fast food 2 or 3 times. I have not had a craving for anything since I have been here. My favorite used to be spicy chicken sandwiches from jack, I have not stopped at a Jack in the box once since I arrived.

My last little rant, the traffic. Oh how I did not missing driving here in the 24/7 traffic. It is horrible, it takes twice as long to get somewhere as it should and the drivers.  I know people are bad in Mx and mostly because they are not taught like we are. Here is a whole different story. We are showed what is right and wrong, courtesy and road rules. Knowing this it just pisses me off even more because people are so rude and have no common sense or courtesy. I have been in almost three accidents since I have been here just because people think they own the road and everything else.

I know I am very lucky to have been born in this country, for all the freedoms I have had, the luxuries, trips I have taken with my family and I am very grateful. Even knowing this I am also very thankful for this new life I have been led to. Somewhere were I can appreciate all that I had growing up, but to find out that I did not need everything I once thought I did, and that there are more important things in life than what I once believed. I never once in my life thought that I would be living in another state, let alone another country. I never wanted to look at this change as a bad thing, and I still don't. I think all these life changes and lessons are only turning me into a better person. These are the cards that have been dealt and I want / have to believe its gonna be a good hand.

Counting down the days to PV

I cant tell you how good it is to be back. It was horrible being cut off from everyone. I think I was having withdrawals. lol. Well my computer was working fine one day and then the battery started dying. Of course I go to plug it in and nothing. Crap now what. The computer died, we were told it would be 150 dollars if it was the battery or 70 if it was the charger. Turns out it was the charger. After I finally got the charger back I went to use the computer and the area that you move the mouse icon around on is not working. Luckily I brought a mouse with me only bad part is having to keep replacing the batteries.  I am planning on getting another computer when I go back to the states in the summer because I think I might go a little stir crazy if this happens again, not to mention I am planning on getting an online job soon. I think my computer had a good run, 5 years is a long time for a laptop.

Any who not to much has been going on the last couple weeks, keeping up with the daily routine of things. I did have a good valentines day though. Javi and I decided not to buy each other gifts and instead go out to a restaurant where we could both enjoy something nice together. Although we agreed he still came home with a box of chocolates. Yummy. Even though he had to go to work in the evening we went out to eat at a place that is known for the casuelas, which I have fallen in love with. This is the only way I will drink tequila. It is a mix of tequila, citrus fruits and soda. So Yummy. Javi specifically picked this place because he knew that I really like these drink. The only bad part was javi could not enjoy them with me, but we had a great few hours together.

Sadly I did not take m camera with me but I found this shot online of the drink.

 

Javi brought this home from work, he pulled the lucky number and won a prize. It is was so cute I did not want to eat it. I did crack and opened it, should of left it closed because it was so not as good as I thought it would be.

 I have some good news that I have not been able to share since I've been gone, this week Javi finally gets his vacation time. We have decided to take a drive to Puerto Vallarta, Yeah I am so excited!!! Javi's parents have never been to the beach and even though it would have been nice to have some time alone it will also be great to experience this with them. It started out with just us four going, but half way through the planning his sister and the kids decided to tag along. So we will be driving for around 5 hours in our blazer with 7.5 people (baby), luggage and food. It will be an interesting drive but hey, the more the merrier.

I know a lot of random crap in this post but just had to get you caught up. Sorry.

It is great to be back, I have missed reading all your blogs and keeping up with everyone. If you don't hear from me before the weekend I will be back with a load of photos from our trip.

Checking in..

Wow it has almost been a month since I have been away from my own blog. Most days I have spent cleaning, doing laundry, helping cook, or trying to find things to keep me busy. You would think since I have so much free time that I would be spending it blogging, but I have not been able to get inspired by anything.
Since I have been here I have gotten back into the routine of things which was a little harder for me to do this time because I was in the states so long on my last visit. I have been saying I moved already but during the last year I spent more than six months all together in the states. I think knowing my trip here in November was not just a visit this time, it was finally the big move (no date to go back) was a little harder. It did not hit me when I arrived or even a month after. Just a few weeks ago I started getting my anxiety back. It is hard to explain or figure out because I do not feel like I want to or need to back. I miss my family of course and other things that I am used to but I don't have an overwhelming feeling that I need to go back. I think I just need something else to keep me busy during the hours that Javi is gone.
Javi's job (though we are both grateful that he as one) sucks! Every three weeks he is switched from the morning to night hours. During the day he leaves from 730 am to around 730 pm and the night he is gone from 530 pm to 530 am.  He is paid around 1000 pesos a week which all considering is not that bad for where we are at, he has insurance and gets a monthly bonus if he does not miss any days. It is our his best choice for our location besides probably having his own business. I just wish we had more time together.
Oh well I guess  I really don't have that much to complain about. I think I just needed to get some stuff off my chest and remember what is really important. My family is healthy, I have a roof over my head, food to eat everyday and so much love and support from everyone, not to mention no matter what time he gets home I still get to give javi a hug/kiss goodbye or hello every morning/night.

Gripa Gripa go away...

Hey everyone I just wanted to get one more post in before this holiday weekend. I have not been here for a complete month yet and it feels like half of the time I have spent being sick. My eye has finally healed but the weekend after that I came down with la gripa (cold) it has been a week now and I am starting to feel back to normal. This is my first year I will be completely away from my family for Christmas. It feels a little weird being so far away and learning some new traditions.
At least it feels a little like Christmas here, we have a decorated tree in the house and a Nativity set. The house is decorated with lights and so are other houses here in the town. I thought there would be more decorations around the plaza but there are not any at all. The only difference in the center are all the kiosks set up for the holiday shopping. I am not sure how everything works for Christmas eve and day here with Javi's family. Back in the states we would be going over to my moms side of the family and spending Christmas eve with them and then getting up early Christmas day to open presents with my dads side of the family.
  I believe we will be staying here in my suegras house for both days and doing our gift exchange. I am glad Javi suggested it, it makes it feel a little more like Christmas here and I love watching peoples faces when they open their gifts. I am looking forward to spending time with Javis whole family, not all of them get a chance to visit that much and of course enjoying all the yummy food including the tree P's. Pozole, Ponche, y Pastel (made by yours truly). I just wanted to wish my family back in the states a wonderful christmas. I am and will be thinking of you and love you.

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas. Have a wonderful Weekend.